Hey, you meanie evil little thing!

The one thing I can not stand is when you don’t mean the things you say.

When you say it, you better act as it is. Don’t go around saying how much you hate her and still act all friendly with her in the social media world and don’t think people don’t know about it.

I KNOW.

You are one evil person yourself. *with squinted eyes*

Evil lives within everyone’s mind. Don’t think I don’t know.

Let’s return, shall we?

Hey friend, it’s been a long time since we had those hth chats/texts. I don’t know if you realize, but aren’t we being a little too dramatic with each other lately? When I hurt you, you hurt me back and when you hurt me, i get all revengeful. This ain’t no cliche but why are we so childish! I know that I avoid you at times but that isn’t cause i dislike you but i’m hating myself (right, easier said than done). Jealousy happens to me at some point in time and i really don’t wish to think in a certain way to hurt you with those “hidden” cues but my mind just gets malicious and the desire would invariably gets stronger when you do it back on me.

“am i an evil person?” No. I prefer to believe that it’s common in human life.

Can we revert back and be honest-to-goodness? don’t worry anyways, i did not betrayed you even once if you had ever wonder. i simply set aside all those secrets and feelings the moment we started to drift apart.

… …

It’s been a while.

 

 

It’s been some time and the first thing that comes to mind is the arrival of october. Although I’m an august baby, I yearn for september to come.

First thing first, can you believe internship is finally gonna come to an end? It’s been 4.5 months and there’s only another 1.5 month to go. I can’t believe I’m actually gonna make it after all these stress and hassles (I actually bother to take up a part-time job during this complicated-enough time).
Therefore, I made an exceptional promise to plan a getaway right after this mundane period. so i thought October would be the best rest and relaxation interval for me.

waiting for more jollifications to chance upon…

 

 

i’m a virgo.

Recently I got to see this on twitter and i thought it was interesting, but i think i will become selfless if i were to think that way. lol @TheDailyVirgo

Virgos born on Aug 30 have an overwhelming urge to express their individual identities. They have a love of learning, travel and written word. (true, these are my hobbies)

People born on Aug 30 are sincere friends. They’re extremely fun-loving and enjoy a vibrant social life. (this is for you to decide)

Virgos born on Aug 30 tend to think big and have a tendency to spend big. Fortunately, they have a talent for financial management. (maybe not think but spend big. but the second part is definitely true hahahaha)

August 30 born Virgos have a positive attitude about life; setbacks and delays don’t worry them. (yah right , but i think a lot about them)

Her composition

There is a girl who has been striving for independence ever since she had her first reality experience. From then on, she started fighting against her dependable life. But she did not always succeed in every way. There would be ups and downs in between and after all, she’s a girl; she would waiver to temptations at times too. Especially when she’s living a luxurious life now, how can she resist? Everyone would love lavish gifts, don’t they?

When she yearns for something, she saves up and don’t mind spending. But she fears of getting the wrong advice and ended up falling into a problematic gash. When she can’t get what she wants, irresistable opportunities just happens to drop from the sky and as i said, it’s irresistable.

Temptations don’t invariably gets her happy yet guilty as well. She can get upset when she don’t get what she was expecting to come. She didn’t want empty expectations, but sometimes that is all she gets. Usually at times like this, she will cry to sleep. She thought that nobody could console her, that nobody understands how she feels. Because she thinks people are born to be selfish.

She finally learned not to set high expectations on people and it is only true to depend on herself. But she still finds it so difficult to loosen herself to indepedence, considering the consequences. She doubts she’s ready.

This is the struggle of her independency.

i’m not bored.

I just translated a whole chunk of lyric from a chinese song. i don’t think i’m crazy, so don’t call me that. fyi, i do realize there’s a google translator.

i am not bored.

anyway it is called ‘beautiful love’ by tanya. (and hey, it’s a mini composition)

Keep a look out on the time and don’t let it float away again.
I was once so used to be attached to the dark world but ever since your ignorant appearance, i am deeply touched by it.

We had this walk and we had no contact or whatsoever, but i still feel as contented.

This world that I live in, it might just get crashed upon at any time.
If tomorrow is gonna disappear, and if i am still able to love, i do not wish for anything but to remember the warmth that you gave me in your hug.

Love’s beautiful, so beautiful.
You have to learn to lose before you start to truly care.
Be grateful for I am who I am, me whom you loved and embraced.
So please hold my hands and don’t let go.

Love’s beautiful, so beautiful.
I am very happy that you made, to understand me.
I will not cry in sorrow again as now i believe,
the proof to a life of beautiness is the courage to love with every single second.